Saturday, April 30, 2011

Flash Fiction

1
The architecture of the morning
gave way to words.

2
I traced it back to an ordinary Saturday afternoon
in an otherwise ordinary spring -
narratives clogging the airways
the wishy-washy of what could have been said
the grocery list indifferent in the pocket.

3
The beaches weren't as ponderous.
It was good to get out and walk along the sand shoeless
forgetting about the crowds at the malls
getting their kids ready for another week.

4
I suppose I should have taken a number and waited
but instead I waded into the classifieds
rehearsing lines which would never leave the apartment.

5
I thought about the hazy rituals that fence us in
and the many times we had slipped through
with a false sense of animation,
surfing for the wide-angle view, expecting perspective.

6
We'd often leave the page unturned
only to find we'd lost our place.

7
I again checked the closets.
The several pairs of shoes you left behind reminded me
of our many games of Solitaire.
A few drinks.
Going about one's business, you always said.

8
I'd heard that our neighbor
the one with the obsession for constellations with double letters
followed suit.

9
April fell away.
The days brightened.

10
The flowers on the table
began dropping petals
like the snowflakes I would never see
from that window again.

11
Moments came and went.
I dreamed of music
the promise of an afterlife

12
and was comforted
by the ambiguities
that trundled along
in perfect harmony
muffling the train's warning blasts

13
especially on foggy evenings
when I tend to mistake strangers
for much-needed sleep.

Robert and Shana ParkeHarrison

Friday, April 29, 2011

Uncommitted Crimes

The cruise ship's wait staff have grown impatient
discussing alchemy on their breaks

thumbing through seed catalogs well into their shift.
A motivational speaker deconstructs Kidder's House

remaindered, and left shivering on the street corner.
I file a missing person's report.

It makes for enjoyable reading
and many passengers retire to their hammocks

with an autographed copy.
The mid-afternoon lemonade flows freely among the lap dancers

who are fit to be tied over the latest pay cut.
Many resolve to stop shaving their legs.

Unheard of. Hearing this
several customers forego the complimentary pedicure

and instead place gloomy bets at the pony track
where morning workouts raise dust for after-school projects.

Of course there is little else to do. Meanwhile
foreclosures echo the patter of mice in the walls

their plight the subject of a recent docudrama
aired during pledge week on public television.

Students will soon purge classrooms, witless utterances,
pop quizzes and dirty laundry

their iPads and laptops on autopilot.
At the end of the shift many wait staff confide

that they are considering a career change as evictors
hoping to get in and out

without so much as a wrinkled brow.
Someone points out that there is much down time

as well as a certain amount of risk.
This seems to turn the tide, and many look anxiously toward land.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Through Weeping Willows

Laundry waving from a clothesline.

Your mother and grandparents harvesting home-grown items
for sale to neighborhood grocers -

oxheart cherries, blueberries, blackberries, gooseberries,
raspberries, plums, squash, cabbage, cauliflower, corn.

Rhode Island Reds bickering.

A blacksmith's rhythmic hammering.

The baldy-sour haircuts
dungarees - rolled-up of course -
US Keds black canvas high-tops.

The Wiffle ball tournaments that stretched across the summer
bringing neighbors out onto their stoops
fanning themselves

even long-legged Trudi
who lived alone in a first-floor flat
cigarette in one hand, Zippo in the other
in curlers, mascara, and white short-shorts
zippered in back.

The black Cadillac
and the older gray-haired gentleman
who picked her up every other evening at nine.

The nights you spent waiting
shade drawn
sucking on a Tipparillo
pilfered from May's News on the corner
a front for numbers.

Worm's Billiards.
The endless games of Nine-Ball

and Steve's Hot Dog Palace
where you could get two all the way
for fifty cents.

The empty pigeon coop next door

and the day you demolished it
with a sledgehammer for fifty bucks
after the owner's widow got the okay from her son
who had escaped
with an MBA and a Mercedes.

Your uncle, too, defected out of boredom
taking with him a clipboard
with plans for a good job
and a good woman
leaving behind your aunt and cousin.

Footprints in the sand leading to a house overlooking a river:

the house you lived in briefly
with a woman who auditioned for the part of your wife
and who enjoyed mowing the lawn on a green riding mower
trailed by two yapping yellow Labs.

You quibbled over the selection of songs
but kept hearing the same tune in your head
over and over and over.

Your ninety-year-old neighbor removing the trunk
of a weeping willow with a maul.

Your father in his blue work shirt
sleeves rolled up
pockets bulging with pens, pencils, paper
the endless jottings.



Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Sarabande

          for Barbara Vink

I thought I'd begin with a guy playing a violin.
Some of the hairs on his bow are broken.
About three or four minutes into Haydn or Mozart
he breaks a string
but then I switched it
to a woman violinist
then to a woman violist
and finally to a woman cellist
the ancient wood between her thighs
giving rise to a sarabande by Bach
bringing to mind among other things
Bergman's last film.
I love the breeziness of it all
the connect-the-dots simplicity
and carried it outside
to try it out against the receding cityscape
hoping to find the right fit
the right mood
something Catherine David calls
the beauty of gesture -
the finesse and scope practice confers.
I almost had it when I realized
that the cellist - let's call her Alex -
wasn't really into it.
Her mind was surfing -
I guess accomplished players can do that -
thinking about tattoos
and how she'd decided the time had come to get one.
But that was it.
She wasn't sure what she wanted
or where she wanted to put it.
Perhaps some sort of Asian motif
a talisman, her own Rosebud
on her right shoulder
or maybe her inner left thigh.
The secret as they say is in the source.
So she boards a train
amid rubbernecking at Shinjuku junction.
Even the conductor muses
that he too could live there.
The tracks converge into a deep magenta
accompanied of course by Alex's subtle bowing.
I vote for the thigh
and begin assembling ingredients for gazpacho
which I promised myself
I would prepare before the end of this poem
when the shore will beckon
and the twins will begin their seasonal whining.
Tattooing I tell her has been around
since the Stone Age
as evidenced by Nova's Ice Mummies.
It won't take long
and not all are painful.
Something about the proximity to bone
the chest or lower back for example
which continues to brittle
with each variation
up to the climactic
I've fallen and I can't get up
one cold wintry day
while reaching for a note
high on the neck.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

In Perugia

1
I awake in Perugia.

2
Shopping carts dot the town.
People here walk everywhere.

3
I ask FedEx for directions.
The restaurant is tucked away behind a melodrama.
It is family-owned.
Fresh-cut pasta and t-shirts hang on the patio.

4
I live above an open mic.
Sign-up begins at 7:30 on Thursdays.
There is no feature.
The open mic spills out onto the street.
The streets sing of spring.

5
Buyback -noun. The act of buying something that one previously owned.

6
It seems to continue
even here in Perugia.

7
I'm watching a film on Alexander the Great on my friend's plasma TV.
The facts of his death remain controversial.

8
We're watching a battle scene.
It pits the Macedonians against the Persians.
The Macedonians have very long lances.

9
Freudian -adjective. Of, or relating to, Sigmund Freud.

10
The Persians use chariots with spiked hubs.
They mean business.

11
All things are not meant to come together.
The hand reaching out, for instance.
Fingers fumbling for keys.
A jingling.

12
This has nothing to do with the Macedonians or the Persians.

13
Or, maybe it does.

14
Midnight, here on a street in Perugia.
Her unlined face, haunting.

15
No idea what I meant by the last line.

16
Therapist to client: How many times has this happened?

17
How long has that evening train been gone?
(I lifted that line from a folk song whose writer likely lifted it as well.)

18
An example of multiple liftings.

19
Screen dump -noun. The act of transferring screen images to a printer or storage medium.

20
You try to reach a midpoint
the median, but fail, but continue.

21
Negotiations stall.
As reported.

22
And now this ridiculous expression.
This jotting down of some sort of equivalence
buttressed by propositions

23
as if you were a math prof
as if you could squeeze it all
into some makeshift container.

24
As if you were riding in a chariot with spiked hubs.

25
A digital billboard:
Lose the fabrications, the flimsy allegations.
They do nothing but pin you with regret.


26
Can you imagine what they would do
had they the wherewithal
to call your bluff with the insistence
of a fortune teller's hand?

27
I awake in Perugia.
Early spring rains fall on spiked hubs
behind a blacksmith shop.

Monday, April 25, 2011

These are a few of my . . .

I had intended to write about them
but got sidetracked.
Garrison Keillor reading a Simic poem
filled with images of people walking -
limping, weaving, shuffling,
classic ballroom dancing
(reminding me of my first
Simic book - Unending Blues -
from Boulevard Books
now an apartment building
just upstreet from my office).
Then Julie Sheehan at poems.com
threatening to come back
in clapboard,
dormers sprouting like underarm hair
a big crazy Victorian
with lead-based paint on radiators,
old fashioned,
and a little bit insane
but sturdy to a fault.

Driving to work
I pass a house
I wish I lived in
(Why are they dredging the pond?)
and turn green
before returning to Annie Dillard's
erudite telling of the Maytrees
Lou and Toby
their bohemian life together
in Provincetown
and Toby's dying
in view of the water
in the audiobook's killer last chapter.
I did get out there this year
with my girlfriend
and four kids
strolling along Commercial Street
with its colors and costumes and characters
rejuvenated.
In The Maytrees
Lou a painter tells Toby a poet
about the incredible light
in Provincetown.
I am so blinded by all the lights
in Provincetown
that I've failed to notice
what many call
the light in Provincetown:
the streets drizzled with sand,
the sounds, the smells,
the shops, the galleries,
the Pilgrim Monument
Race Point
Herring Cove
the dunes,
the bicycles,
hundreds, with their front wheels
propped up like puppies' paws
onto wooden fences
along the beach.
And the ocean.
Always the ocean.
Or the sea.
Which is it?
I prefer the melodrama
of the sea
as in Melville's
great shroud
of the sea.
Early one morning
years ago
jogging
I passed Norman Mailer
with newspaper.
Another time
Mary Oliver.
Then Stanley Kunitz
working his tiered garden
on the west end.
I could see their words
floating above them.
Into work
with its blur
of meetings,
then off to the gym
during lunch
to use the speed bag
in the boxing room
taking me back
forty years
to a summer with troubled teens
in a School for Boys
that eventually gave us
Mike Tyson.
I was an assistant counselor
in one of the cottages
which housed
a pool table, speed bag, heavy bag.
We all had a go at them
under the tutelage
of the rec director
a former Golden Glove middleweight.
One afternoon, a fracas erupted
over a pool game.
He and I jumped in
and in the melee
my right elbow loosened
a teen's front tooth.
That afternoon
I drove him to a dentist
who wasted no time
pulling the tooth.
I said nothing
but figured the dentist saw this kid
as just another delinquent
who was being dealt his due.
Later, on the drive back
we stopped at my mother's.
She fed us, fussed over us.
The next day
he handed me a thank you note
to give to her.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Trying to Find My Own Easter Eggs

The nice thing about Alzheimer's is you get to hide
your own Easter eggs.
          - John McCain

Did Abraham Lincoln say that?
Who?
It's here in the dictionary.
He's out back.
Insidious.
Developing so gradually....
Your wrinkled brow has an appointment.
It will be pressed along with your trousers.
Remember, one leg at a time.
Like this?
The ticket from your childhood.
Around the bend.
What ticket?
May I see the timetable?
I found the photos from your canoe trip down the Yukon.
There's gold in them thar hills.
That dentist was flaky.
I'm glad we switched.
The TV remote is lost.
In the Yukon?
Did he leave a message?
The access code is on the tip of my tongue.
The what?
Elvis has left the building.
In ruin.
Something about a poem by Shelley.
It has to be behind Door #3.
Uncle Miltie. Now there was a comedian.
Nope.
Not to worry, we'll reset the table with your mother's china.
Let's take a trip.
Ozymandias.
Now you're talkin'!
They're dropping like flies.
You should have got a flu shot.
The last time I saw him he was bopping along

without a care in the world.
I tried my best to listen.
Dribble. Dribble.
The cluster flies are piling up on the sill.
The stench will be horrific.
I need to get dinner ready.
All blue and green.
We saw a woman in an iron lung in a sideshow.
The circus was in town.
We have to capture the sunrise.
Front row seats.
Five people were held hostage.
How many years ago was that?
At least 35.
I thought he was older.

He's such a nice kid.
I hope the two of them make it.
Eight solid years.
This and that.
New York.
New York. It's a wonderful town:
the Bronx is up and the Battery's down.
We had this huge shiny Winnebago
and flashlights.
We followed the path.
Clapping.
What about the groceries?
They give me the heebie jeebies.
Do I know you?
I know you.
You're the one who makes house calls.
Screw Santa!
The kids were dressed in costumes.
We took them to the parade.
He managed to tunnel through.
There was so much laughter.
I can't remember how to use this.
Can you help me?
The milk truck collided with a coal wagon.
Who are you?
Please, don't.
I was afraid you had left.
They're crazy.


Saturday, April 23, 2011

This Way Please

A stage hand steps out of the wings of a 747
his pock marks, circa fifteenth century, map the location
of a hidden cache of manuscripts.

A yellow blurb raises a ruckus on the seven PM newsbreak.
The anchor, your neighbor's kid who dropped out of med school
when graying cadavers began texting him,

rebounded to bagboy before landing on his head.
Consider Leonardo. His celibate hands separating the quiet tissue
encrypting his legacy with mirror-writing

remaindered to coffee tables at the close of business.
Tell me if anything ever was done. Like him we await
the final bed to review the patterns of fence posts

driven randomly into the earth
the quick starts on cold mornings
the madness of the emissaries in each of us

brandishing semaphores against the gathering storm
leaving us to conjure the hustle-bustle of late arrivals
searching for coins to deposit into the solitary parking meter.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Tomorrow Is

Reluctantly the book opens you to another voice
to the promise of past miracles
a long lost friend
an ex-lover perhaps
impersonating the silent screen star
you saw late last night on TCM -

the silent screen star who later
swept you away across a field and into a pine forest
where you spread a blanket
and listened to freight trains
wailing through crossings
on the outskirts of your childhood.

Was it enough to revisit that strange neighborhood
where interruptions withered you with IOUs?

The voluptuousness of the model in the painting on the cover
erases the bric-a-brac and cheap souvenirs
from your memory of the shore -
a memory you are better off without.

Later in the book, an old man - your father? -
squirrels away pocket change in a poorly-lit closet
his wife, again, missing from the family portrait
their daughters, in the next room, arguing,
party dresses at Goodwill.

Like him you worry that tomorrow
is a boat on a rough sea
without sail or oars
a car idling at a traffic light
its tires flat.

Your high school classmates are in there as well
hovering in the white unbroken snow of morning.
Are you surprised to find them in there?
Are you surprised to find your high school yearbook
bristling with Post-its?
its pages dog-eared from your searches?

Faces from your childhood
pop up in the last chapter
knocking on your back door
looking in through your back window
like the shadows from your favorite films
that lately, late at night, awaken you
as they enter and exit the roundabout
just outside your window.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

With Freud in Vienna

He took a couch that had belonged to his wife....
          - NPR’s The Writer's Almanac, May 6, 2008

I’ve strung paper lanterns around my room like garlic
and climbed onto a huge wooden horse
penknifed with the names of Greek ghosts.

I will joust with the characters in the next graphic novel
that crosses my bath water.
I admit to doctoring phonebooks

and confessing best sellers to interim chairs.
I am responsible for the murder of crows on my front lawn.
Their cawing is peppered with references to the Oedipal Conflict.

It’s as unsettling as castration anxiety.
I can’t blame them, though.
They’ve been duped along with the rest of us -

duped into thinking all roads lead to orgasms.
My dreams are populated by gas guzzlers lining up at pumps.
My ex-wife had a closetful of pumps.

She kept them in their original boxes.
She had an affair with Freud.
They shared an affinity for cigars.

Freud borrowed his wife’s couch
and set up shop with Josef Breuer.
I found a footnote that characterized Freud’s wife as a whiner.

She wanted to invest their Deutsche Marks in a winery.
Freud opted instead for a tobacco plantation.
To him, everything was a cigar.

Freud’s wife demonstrated the use of a Pocket Rocket for Anna O.
Freud and Breuer watched speechless.
It occurred to them that talking was the cure.

They called it The Talking Cure.
Freud, his wife, and Breuer became known
as The Talking Threesome.

They had a successful run in Vaudeville.
Because of Freud,
glass menageries have been targeted by PETA.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Rapt by Her Angularity

I am held without reservation
and shown to a table near the kitchen,
a schoolboy sans homework
each breath interminable
as if, in slow-motion, I am forced
to restock shelves against a deadline.
I do my best, however, to weather
the strange ineptitude,
the discoloration of the senses that follows,
but before I know it,
a certain triviality arrives
with its own list of demands.
Later, after the downsize,
several strangely-costumed female leads
appear on cue from installations
and reappear one by one
as if in an infinite loop
offering monologues and soliloquies,
odds and check-out times,
well-wrought and well-received,
thorough in their encryption
yet lacking in their payback,
while outside a rickety milk wagon
continues along our narrow one-way street
depositing its ancient bottles
on one chipped stoop after another.

Black-Haired Girl  by Egon Schiele

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

At the Clinique Counter with My 14-Year-Old

My grandfather stops by from the grave
none the worse for wear
trailing Philip Morrises and Dobler Ales.
He’s decided to resume his stint as blacksmith
figuring an entre into what many are calling
The Second Coming of Steam.
Steam locomotives - huge, black, hissing -
are being redeployed;
tracks laid in the mountains.
Mid afternoons, I join him on the wrought-iron bench
in the middle of the vegetable garden.
A young weeping willow shadows us.
A local theater troupe stops by
and gives us the thumbs up.
My grandfather offers them Doblers
then launches into a re-enactment of Act 2 Scene 4 of Henry IV:
Do thou stand for my father
and examine me upon the particulars of my life.

They assure him there will be plenty of time for that.
I try to explain but am shushed by the audience.
At the Clinique counter
I can see my image in the mirror
between my daughter’s and the Clinique rep’s.
The Clinique rep’s skin is as white and smooth as steam.
I begin to believe in the Second Coming.
I begin to hope for the Second Coming.
My daughter and the Clinique rep discuss foundations.
I mention that I prefer poured foundations.



Monday, April 18, 2011

On the Road, They Cup Their Hands

And in the book-length ''Flow Chart,'' Ashbery beguilingly
decided that he would write a poem of 100 single-spaced pages
that had to be finished on his 61st birthday.
          - Nicholas Jenkins

On the road, behind the wheel, they cup their hands.
The backs of their hands are smooth.
Their back seats are filled with cans of Reddi-wip.
They have sampled the lush life.
They know what they want.
They resist altercations.
They amass alterations.
They have knelt in makeshift pews around the world.
Forty percent floss daily.
Ninety percent know they should.
There's a right way and a wrong way.
They know both ways.
They've seen the sun smirk.
They've seen the sun through its ups and downs.
They've captured condolences in Bell Jars.
They're privy to insider jokes.
They're aware of the volatility of insider trading.
Their policy papers are well-known.
Their policy papers are checked for accuracy.
Their policy papers include points of contention.
Some of their policy papers are white papers.
Some of their policy papers are one-liners.
Some of their policy makers are one-trick ponies.
Some have been retired.
A few have been rehired.
Their terms of service are filled with exasperation.
They have been known to leave broken pencils on copiers.
A few have skipped to the middle of the chapter.
A few have read themselves into a corner.
A few know that all hell could break loose.
This is not without precedent.
Outside, the quaintness.
The traffic jam refused.
Birds of different feathers quibble.
The authorities have been notified.
The fjords are flimsier.
Dinner was served by unknown perpetrators.
Several were led away.
A few were led astray.
They had nowhere to turn.
The heavens opened.
Bits of paper bearing algorithms rained down.
They sat back and enjoyed the popcorn.
Free logarithms were handed to them as they deplaned.
Several were relieved.
Many were held back.
They reviewed their notes.
They reviewed the script.
In Scene Three, someone entered stage left.
There was much hubbub.
There was much rubbernecking.
No one wanted a spoiler.
The director ordered a rewrite.
Others ordered the special.
A few ordered Mahi Mahi.
They were ordered to leave.
There was concern for the environment.
There was concern for endangered species.
They left after breakfast.
They had miles to go before the weather reports got serious.
The weather reports were not user friendly.
It took them a while to make heads or tails of things.
Suddenly, a door opened.
The door was quite ornate.
It captured the fancy of countless passersby.
Heads turned.
The windup and the pitch.
There was a break in the action.
It was a clean break.
It was a breakout.
Kindergartners were flown in in the nick of time.
Criteria were set by greengrocers.
Someone wanted a say in the matter and was shown the door.
It was a different door.
Several marched to a different drummer.
It was later revealed that it was not a Pass/Fail course.
The audience emitted a collective sigh.
Everyone began cutting back.
Everyone began cutting class.
Everyone began cutting coupons.
It was a Buy One Get One Free Sale.
The sailors were ordered into the raft.
The rafters in the theater shook.
They had lost their credibility.
They had lost their identity.
They began tap dancing.
They began backpedaling.
The floor gave way to an argument.
A few began litigating.
It was a fine mess.
A hooker chimed in with the Dow.
A reference librarian brought in a dog-eared instruction manual.
They were told to leave well enough alone.
They were reminded not to forget to plan ahead.
They emerged from the shadows of their former selves.
They dawdled.
Time was running out.
The implausible happened.
They stood in silence.
It was as if they never were.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Writing to be Read

The writer writes to be read, he said,
and yellow and blue, too.

Begin with the primaries -
always a good start.

It's not enough to be informed.
You've got to part your hair

and comb the beach.
It's a thankless job

but no one has to do it.
Unconventional wisdom, you know,

believes in the magic
of a single grain of sand.

Which reminds me, the sugar bowl
needs to be refilled.

Refined sugar, though harmful,
is OK with me.

I have to stop for gas.
I'm almost empty of recriminations.

I'm not sure of the exact meaning
of that word

but I wanted to use it
before it was too old.

Writing a poem, for me, you see,
is like crafting a piece of found art,

which, some would say, is oxymoronic,
and a good place to end.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

I Step Gingerly Over My Body

I step gingerly over my body and out the door,
trailing wagons of red words
across the remains of the comet
that passed ever-so-briefly through the heavens
and into the eye of my needle.
I'd been waiting for the pass for centuries it seemed
oblivious to the calculus of the day.
I bothered neither with landscapes nor with portraits,
having abandoned perspective years ago.
Life, for me, bumped along without a blink:
caskets were crafted by the light of pyres,
spores threatened the world's wonders.
A friend of disappointment,
I paid tolls without flinching,
pumped gas beneath the Self sign without logging on.
Above, celestial arguments grew louder and louder.
I hid in the laundry room among the unwashed.
One day, while channel surfing, I learned to whistle.

Friday, April 15, 2011

The Last Crusader

It's your last chance to take note of your lookalike
before he burrows into your coupon-laden dreams
and awakens you at three AM with a disconnect.

You who were always there
when we needed a tire changed
as if your superb failures weren't enough.

And while you're at it, please clear out the plasticine figures!
They seem to have taken on a life of their own
appearing pro bono as anchors on the midday news.

A wok would give us a chance to clear our heads,
spiral out of focus.
But let's not get bogged down in depositions.

Put yourself, if you would, in her choreography,
dispensing merriment to hordes of last-minute honorees
as they scramble for the exit.

Quite intricate, wouldn't you say?
Maybe you wouldn't, but what about those waylaid orders
spilling into the street, creating havoc

glistening like plastic porkpie hats
on freshly-painted park benches?
Why does everything suddenly seem muted?

Once upon a time, you know,
whiteness like this enveloped the last crusader
as she tried to return home.




Thursday, April 14, 2011

Making Other Arrangements

With my long-range plans sputtering,
I retire to the sun porch
where a made-for-cable miniseries
is being shot on a shoestring.
Inside, the room continues its cornucopian spin.
The light fixtures complain of burnout
and threaten to move to Duluth.
Sensing a quandary, the leaves
take up a collection on my behalf.
Nonetheless, I proceed, realizing
too late perhaps that there is little sense
in assuming an arresting vision
if you lack the wherewithal to get to first base.
Midway through the second reel
a curlew advances. This is too much!
The last time this happened buttresses
with the determination of Kamikazes
flew around my grandparents' doilied parlor
as a red tuxedoed ringmaster
announced their entrance into the center ring.
Even the dog came out of retirement.
Plums and avocados strolled hand-in-hand
through the labyrinthine garden.
The sun primped. There was nary a stump in sight.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Your Childhood

A shadow passing through a courtyard resembles your childhood.
Streetlights in a nearby town go out and refuse to come in.

Empty canvases await your image.
The faint-at-heart carve pumpkins and antelope in your likeness.

Demitasse cups bearing your name surface at garage sales.
The letters of the alphabet await your first paragraph.

Fellow scriveners wrinkled and preoccupied hand out free passes.
Some opt out, occupying themselves with backward glances.

Introductions are waived leaving you smitten with apostrophes.
You realize you've misplaced your yearbook and address book.

Perhaps it's time to query backgammon players and coatchecks,
to fill grocery carts with rubble and breakfast drinks.

Perhaps it's time to try once again to locate your siblings
who have scattered and are subletting, besieged by telemarketers.

A Greyhound rolls in. Words float in over the transom.
You recognize your childhood among the passengers.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Etude

This piece will have to do for now.
There should be enough in it to keep you busy
especially the second movement
with its surprising reprieve.
There will be coffee of course
and squandered days before confusion
enters the room and bolts the door.
Again this year the soil will be turned
hours set in motion against the dwindling light
yielding memories like meaty tidbits
picked at by gnarly-clawed
Rhode Island Reds, their strange,
soft, drawly clucking filling the void.

Monday, April 11, 2011

mismatch.com

The alleged perp on the six o’clock news is your double
his eyes enhanced by Etch A Sketch
follow passersby like the eyes of Jesus
in the velvet images hawked on the boardwalk
by shell gamers whose rusted-out Lincoln Continentals
sport curb feelers and parking tickets
as a matter of principle.
Your bowl of ramen noodles looks lonely.
Your flask of Robitussen has lost its appeal.
You begin thumbing rides into perpetual darkness
forgetting the Magic of the Method
your posthumous publications falling far short
of morphing into the yellow Stutz idling curbside.
Your ashes drizzled along the backside of billboards
merge with the runoff ringing
the toenails of pedal pushers.
Tagged in Facebook
you are subjected to a full body patdown.
The frequent flyer miles stuffed into your Jockeys
irritate the metal detectives at the airport
and in a huff you one-eighty
without emptying your pockets
without cleaning the litter box.
Suddenly you’re being eulogized
as a metallic taste with an erectile dysfunction.
Your pajamas with their self-fulfilling prophesy
are slated to appear on Oprah in April
as part of the Cruelest Month Syndrome.
You never should have trusted them.
You never should have bought into
the slumdog millionare scam.
The devil behind the unpainted wall in your apartment
a master of the mini-diatribe
continues to egg you on
despite the Chapter 11 banging on the back door
replaying rook to queen eight
goading newhires into flagellation,
while you, awash with nuance, rue the day you moved in
under the pretext of repairing circuit breakers
as a born again pornographer.
Meanwhile Philip Glass appears at your table
in a sidewalk café in the American remake
of some European film starring Catherine Zeta Jones
and applies the Heimlich.
I guess it’s true what they say.


Sunday, April 10, 2011

What I Did

          after Frank O’Hara

The day began
with some Bukowski
from the library
posthumous stuff
published by his wife
Linda Lee
the name of my friend’s wife
from decades ago -
high maintenance
moody
eventually left with
some guy
who worked with her
at the hospital.
I don’t remember
the name
of the Bukowski doc
I saw a few weeks ago
on IFC
but he struck me
as raw and rough
but then
what would you expect
from a guy whose old man
beat the crap out of him
every day
with a belt?
I got up for coffee
and Sunday Morning
whose segment
on celebrity chef
Anthony Bourdain
led me to Google
and Salon
and I exited
with pretty much
the same writeup
of Bourdain
as for Bukowski
though I’ve read somewhere
that Bukowski
unlike Bourdain
had a bluebird
in his heart.
The sites I visited
got me
thinking about
serif and sans-serif fonts.
I browsed Wikipedia
for a crash course
and found that
serif fonts
have little thingees
that supposedly
help the eye
move along
a string of words
though sans serif faces
are the font of choice
for blogs and websites
worldwide.
Google brought up
MoMA’s celebration
of 50 years of Helvetica
which is not what
I’m using here.
I decided to run
quick brown fox
past all my fonts
to come up with a list
of favorites.
Into the whole
typography thing
I found a 2005 article
in The New Yorker
about Matthew Carter
acknowledged as
the most significant
designer of type
in America.
Tall, lanky, seventy,
he lives in Cambridge
with the artist
Arlene Chung
and designs fonts
on his computer
out of a room
in his apartment
which reminded me
of the time I got lost
looking for a bike shop
in Harvard Square.
We ate at one of Boston’s
oldest eateries
plank floors
low ceiling
the whole bit.
I thought I heard
Ben Franklin
in the cramped
men’s room
and made a mental note
to reread
his Dream essay
with its well-known
suggestion to fart proudly.
My daughter
a freshman at Hunter
called to say
she was homesick
and to complain about
her media prof
who comes to class
without books or notes
and talks nonstop
about things at random
for two hours at a pop.
We’ve all had
at least one of those.
Mine would come
into class with a can
of Pepsi and a cigarette
and carry on about
so-called
Theories of Learning
for three hours.
Tenured
with textbooks
he was more interested
in the Arabian horses
he bred.
Years later
his mother and mine
ended up in the same room
at a nursing home.
His mother told me
he never visited.
My mother
spent six years there
after my father’s death.
I visited her every few days.
I kind of enjoyed
the respite
from the outside world,
sitting there
among the residents
who at various speeds
were on their way out.
One of the last things
she said to me
was someone
should take a stick to you.
I attributed that
to dementia
preferring not to drill down
any deeper.
I miss her frankness,
her stamina,
her ethnic dishes
and regret not jotting down
their ingredients
along with her secrets -
a right regret
I guess
à la Arthur Miller.
My daughter asked
if she could come home
for the weekend.
Sure, why not.
I hung up, brewed tea
and opened
Mark Strand’s
latest book
New Selected Poems.
Paging through
I was disappointed
to find no new poems
only newly selected
old poems.
And this from a poet!
He too was probably
beaten bloody
daily
by his old man.
I have little interest
in sports, so,
with temperatures
in the unseasonable 70s
I headed out
for a walk
along the country roads
that border
my apartment.
When I moved in
after my ex and I split
I asked the landlady
if she allowed
six-month leases.
That was nine years ago.
I guess Andy Rooney’s
right about life
being like
a roll of toilet paper.
Outside,
as expected,
I found bird shit
on my blue SUV.
I’ve decided that birds
target blue vehicles
more than others
thinking them
bodies of water
to better carry away
their waste.
Maybe I’ll Wikipedia
that later today.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Sometimes After the Alphabet

Sometimes after the alphabet I would rewrite the script.
Sometimes after being thrown under the bus I would lip-sync.
Sometimes after being taken to the cleaners
I would text a random phone number.
Sometimes after preparing a meal I would eat out.
Sometimes I would wait for the light to change.
Other times I would follow the yellow brick road.
Sometimes I would sit on the bench for the entire third quarter
shouting out differences between evergreen
and non-evergreen growth patterns.
It’s all in the ring tones, I was told by an impartial opportunist
the draperies of her gestures
immobilizing me momentarily with blueness
after which I would make my way
through the throng of extras
flown in as expert witnesses
to engage an unemployed harpist caught unaware.
I’d heard of the tampering, of course, the tintinnabulation
of shutters and shudderers
but thought it best to continue with rehab
which had left me with a facial tic
and a strange indifference to Netflix
that I seemed not to care much about.
Sometimes after letting my fingers do the walking
I would check for lifting -
areas that had been damp when the first coat was applied
areas that on other pages in others books
would have been overrun with brown baggers
on lunch break feeding pigeons from forest green park benches.
This is not rocket science; it is someone’s bailiwick,
a smattering of unknowns reminded me
with the effortlessness of a man at the end of his rope
tossing his iPhone into a river
watching it sink slowly out of sight
sans disclaimer, sans influence, sans alternative.
Sometimes after channel surfing
I would dream of a life filled with recipes.
Sometimes I would dream of a life filled with blank pages
the unspoken rush that spreads from head to toe
upon being unfriended on Facebook.


Friday, April 8, 2011

Is That You?

The funhouse has been rehabbed by an enigmatic avatar
who was fingered by the mob
for selling love seats door-to-door.
Her rap sheet included a moratorium on rehearsals.
Her lines, brilliant, were changed by an unknown assailant.
Her voice, scratchy but beloved
by those in the nosebleed section,
failed to weather the latest blur of retractions.
You however emerged unscathed,
again, the hands-on favorite
eyes on the lighthouse
tap dancing to the rhythm of uncertainty.
Even the chameleons were impressed
by the cool architecture of your footnotes
as you stepped up to the plate
in full technicolor
with the right credentials, no less,
and took on the boarded-up storefronts
in that neighborhood that’s been all over the papers lately.
This is not new.
You’ve gotten to second base many times before
despite the allegation that you’re all thumbs.
But don’t be fooled by the latest spam.
The weather will again turn ugly.
Roll out your alternative workplan.
Remain unfazed by telemarketers
who will be ready to give up their ghosts in the foothills.
With luck, you will be off again, Prozac’d,
ready to face the music - a cacophony
by some twentieth-century composer
whose name is synonymous with transparency.


Thursday, April 7, 2011

A Well-Known Stranger to Many

I am sucker punched by a segue
caught off-guard
without a leg to stand on
chuckling at the memory
of the boredom
that permeated the classroom
that afternoon
however many years ago
with its mitten tree
and Escobar's missing mitten
among the ornaments
each with its own story
though none
satisfied my curiosity
which continued to morph
into the evening
triggering an episode
of restless legs
a syndrome common
among hall monitors
who on the word
of a news anchor
move their diversified
portfolios elsewhere
and later
in some strange and bullish way
are as thankful as the man
at the vegetable stand
who has this habit of shouting
to passing motorists
that he's seen worse -
worse than that smidgen of promise
in our otherwise desultory lives -
lives misspent in the off-hours
drilling down deeply
at the drop of a hat
fretting over
the indifference of gas guzzlers -
an illusion put upon us
by that well-known stranger to many.

ICU  by Tom Corrado


Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Leave Taking

And who am I to suggest that the tables
be bussed before being turned?
You know as well as I that when that happens
there's no telling which things will end up.
And what about the Grand Opening the other day
with you standing next to the condiment isle
amidst petit fleurs, balloons, clowns,
and various other artsy types?
I went back to the musical notes
I had so dutifully played
throughout the unfolding
when artist statements some better than others
came blizzarding in from the four corners
inundating us with inconceivables.
Did anyone really care beyond the requisite texts?
Beyond the lint-picking uneasiness?
By the way did you put in for the door prize?
What's there to lose at this point, at the gaming table,
trophies cluttering the breezeway?
Later, to occupy myself, I thumbed
through yellowing pages
while studying my reflection
in shiny metal clothes racks
trying to figure out
what became of the person I thought I was.
The person I wanted to be.
I even considered the suitability of past players
bundled against the seasonably cold temperatures
but found no one who satisfied my predilections.
I eventually left with a trio
of 25-watt globes under each arm
and spent the rest of the evening spellchecking.
I did see you again though
as you were leaving
folding yourself into your late model subcompact
all leather and lace, receipts trailing in the backdraft.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

The AARP Guide to Mating in Captivity

There was Burt in Atlantic City.
Susan at the window with lemons.
Oranges in the fridge.
These helped dispel her fear of headlines.
She could crochet with the best
dreaming herself a croupier -
a croupier with lemons.
She could accommodate the variety of strays
at the animal shelter - strays that had somehow
made their way to her kitchen table
and attached themselves to her pound cake.
Volunteering two nights a week
kept her in good stead
and good spirits for that matter.
Just ask the young man in the tight jeans
at the neighborhood liquor store.
Isn’t red wine good for the heart and soul?
Red wine and red sauce?
she would ask herself.
Yes, there was the occasional dry, sleepless night -
Doesn’t everyone have them? -
but these were blogged into oblivion
dissected on her cutting board
in full view of the television crew outside her window
pestering to film A Typical Day in the Life of.
There were no typical days.
Every day, a first.
The trash disclosing new secrets.
Feeling this way need not be cause for despair
she'd heard on some late night talk show.
There are over-the-counter potions for everything
and yes she had sampled quite a few.
According to the AARP
mating in captivity sharpens one's erotic intelligence.
She imagined herself two standard deviations above the average.
Nervous excitement and mystery?
Keys to uncharted sanctums.
She took this as gospel.
She would accept her facial hair and crankiness
the blue days that stopped her in her tracks
the stiffness
the impatience
the general upset.
This is who she was
now and most likely forever.
There would no longer be a wrong time.
A wrong place.
No mistakes.
No waiting for the tapping at the window.
The opening of the door.

Monday, April 4, 2011

The Days Pass, Inconsequential

True to form the ducks the ducks uncooperative
but what the hell, off with the sport coat,
grab the jack, get down to the nitty gritty
the nuts and bolts of it all. The jig finally up.
The hum of the Internet. The whole thing
captured on laser disc for review, with commentary,
a colorized feed tracking the procession of electrons
trickling through the labyrinth of homes
awash with the glow of information.
Kindergarteners bemused. Ducks imprinting
themselves upon freights meandering
through the twilight and into Act 2 Scene 7
where Winifred - dear departed Winnie -
comes clomping in - As if what? As if nothing
had happened? Nothing had transpired? -
demanding lunch money, an explanation,
a getaway car, a full tank of gas.  Something.
Anything. Desperately trying to match
the tempo, to capture the speeding bullet,
trailing a wake of Pik-Up Sticks, dancing away
her cares and woes under the watchful eye
of canvas, driving home with every step,
every gesture, every blink of the eye,
the importance of rain, the importance of sunlight,
and the days passing inconsequential,
leaving their mark on every last one of us.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Your Next Vacancy

You google your next vacancy, and discover America:
potatoes boiling on a stove
pork chops simmering in a pan
a swimmer chasing a whitecap
the claw-toed combing the beach for pebbles to sell on eBay.
A Magic Eight Ball welcomes you like a benediction;
it's open arms the cruise you've been waiting for.
The lyrics from your childhood Saturdays repeat unchanged
populating a Whitmanesque landscape
as familiar to you as the baseball cards
you so foolishly traded.
The code scribbled onto your palm
during a stoop ball game
reminds you of your high school sweetheart
whose photo surfaced last week on Facebook
with the lines you failed to deliver.
Your station wagon worries a roadmap
like a blackjack player who can feel the next hit,
the hit that will carry him on its shoulders -
a cross country runner returning
to his small coastal village victorious.
You know where this short story is going.
Again you will try to rewrite the last line
as it happened when you opened your fist for your father
and three nickels spilled out onto the table.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Relentless First Buyers

You repackage yourself in a desperate attempt
to overnight to Atlanta -
Home of the Braves
and Coca-Cola
and wellspring of relentless buyers
who line up each morning
with characteristic aplomb
for first dibs and coffee
having watched public television
much of the previous evening.
SUVs occupy your inner self -
a self patterned after others
luring drivers into the castle's insidious moat
dumbstruck with free passes to the furniture expo.
The jetty you long admired will soon be erased
the drawbridge raised without remorse
as you shun the mundanity of musical chairs
for the frenzied insistence of the Tango.
Before long, that scene too will change
and you will be off again
on yet another flight of flimsy
to relearn foreign alphabets
and collect phrases disproving the obvious
remembering at the last moment
to turn off the gas burners on the pale stoves
in the sad, cramped kitchens of your memory.

Friday, April 1, 2011

The Definite Article

The postmortem yielded little
so we broke for refreshments
comparing notes on the different containers
we had drunk Coke from over the years
one hyperbolic guy insisting
that he had drunk Coke
from a hobble-skirt bottle
so designed to make them easy to find
in a bucket of ice water.
We were able to reach a consensus
on a few agenda items
including overuse of the definite article
whose red flag had taxied many to Google.
I pulled my backpack onto one shoulder
and was struck by the connect-the-dots simplicity
of a huge wooden waterwheel
surrounded by loaded brushes
pointed at several hundred gessoed canvases
strewn about a makeshift landscape.
I returned to share my excitement
but the cupboard
merely echoed the rigors of rehearsals.